yesterday

We finally broke .

Me , the old me

Things the old me would do

I would let you scold , even if I'm right
I would call you on my mom's cell just to hear your voice , knowing I'll get scolded by my mom
I would shower you will expensive gifts , and i don't mind if you don't give back
I would sometimes let you worry , just to make you care
I would hide every sorrow , and smile
I would cry all night , and tell you I'm ok
I would bare my anger and pain , and just be silent
I would think of you and cry , just cause I thought about how far you are right now

Thinking back , I'm very stupid .

some people say I treat you badly , some says I treat you too well

Well, I don't know . Is for you to decide

people respect you , not because of you're age . Is cause of the person you are .
I respect people who , I think are worth respecting .
You can cry me a river , what do i care .
Respect is to earn . So , don't think you'll get it so easily .







♥ Caitlyn

sorry

I'm sorry for way I've treated you
I'm sorry for scold you
I'm sorry for throw my tamper at you
I'm sorry for never being there for you
Im sorry for giving you all the pain that hurted you so deeply
I'm sorry for making you worry
I'm sorry for making you sad
I'm sorry for all the sorrow I gave you
I'm sorry for being a terrible , selfish , insensitive girlfriend

I don't deserve you
you're too good to be my boyfriend

I told you to find a new girlfriend that deserves , cherish and a hundred times better than me
Cause I know i don't deserve you , you deserve better
I know is hard for you to do this

Did you know that is hard for me to say and do this to you too ?
Secretly , my heart was in pain
Did you know why I said "that" so easily ?
Cause I don't want you to find out that I was actually hurting
Did you know why I said "isn't that a good thing" when you told me some girls chased you ?
Cause that means that you're a "not bad guy"
And plus , knowing that some people are jealous that your all mine felt great =D
Did you know why I don't want us to text every second ?
Cause I wanted you to miss me more

It's my fault
all my fault




And I'm sorry ,
love Caitlyn






PS: Alex Ho , I love you forever! ♥

Life

♥ Caitlyn

meaningful quotes

That shows how much I LOVE YOU .

I meant for you , and your meant for me . I love you !

I love this quote ! Next time reply this to whoever (whoever ; meaning the older generation) scolds you

I rather be an idiot to lose a friend !

I started missing you as soon as we said goodbye at the airport

Secretly I miss you to death !

Love is the main reason we're still living .

I hope we're together till the end .

I want you to come back , even if is just for a moment !

Lao gong ; You have to remember that , I love you for YOU !

My wish list xP

I want you to stay ! so much . (I should have found this before you went , all well)

I know your not perfect , no one is . But your all I need . And I mean it .

Tell the teacher ; We're not cheaters we just really enjoy having the same answers xD

To my lao gong's heart ; I love you

I just want to let you know , I day dream about you !

To my lao gong ; You matter in this world !

Sometimes , I really want to shout it in your face ; I miss your voice ! call ! don't text !

Sports Day

Today , we had our school sports day . And this year I took part in long jump , 100m , 4x100m . But I only did 4x100m . I missed 100m and got replaced . I waited to long jump but the teacher was too slow and crashed with 4x100m . So , I ran 4x100m first . But when i came back the teacher still hasnt finish !! >< ! damn .

My friend waited for me to finish . Then , we could go to karaoke . So , I didnt took part in 100m and long jump actually .

Karaoke was fun . I get to release all my tension . We sang bout 3-4 hours . But I still feel like singing . But its about time to go . So , we go Hock Lee for a while then went back .
At Hock Lee , the stupid waiter ! DAMN TERRIBLE SERVICE !! I scold him . When ur talking to him his not even listening ! I asked him ; can drink ada apa ? He replied ; ccan drink ada di menu . WHAT THE HELL !!! How stupid can he be !!AAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!I told him to cancel what I'd order . He didnt . GGGRRR!!

After that terrible moment . We eat finish then go . fast . Went to the arcade . As usual , scared of meeting ppl we know =='' .

We wanted to go home but it was so hot . And we're scared of getting darker == . So , we stay there longer . Then , we just stop waiting and just go home . It was so hot , and my legs were killing me . On the way , we got some drinks also . Then , we went home . THE END . =P






♥ Caitlyn 25.02.2010

us ♥ =P

I thought of doing something special to surprise him .
So, I did these .

失去····

我失去了·你给我的那个安心·
我失去了·你给我的安全感·
我失去了·你给我的快乐·
我失去了·你给我的幸福·

失去这些·是很难敷衍的啊·
失去这些·很容易吵架啊·
失去这些·很痛苦的啊·

我很想他啊·
我很想去找他啊·
我不想再吵架了·
我不想再这样下去了·

我很怕失去你啊·
如果我真的失去你·
我要你幸福·
和另一个她一起幸福·

我的吃醋心很大·
所以当然我会吃醋咯·
不过没关系啦·
你幸福就好了·
不用再烦我的事了·

我对你·我觉得不只喜欢吧·
是爱·
可能是可能不是·
不过一种很好的感觉就对了·

人家有羡慕我们呐·····
好开心啊·

你觉得我们最近怎样呢？




The feelings I have for you is something called love
Maybe is just an illustion but it feels so right
I havent felt this way ever in my life
This is the first
And I hope is the last

Sometimes you're really damn stupid and doesnt seem to care what I think
But sometimes your really sweet and you make people feel like they're loved
But sometimes your really naive and you make me feel like im invisible
But sometimes your really understanding of 'some' situations
But sometimes your just too nice to people
Especially girls and you'll make people fall for you easily
And that's making me worry
Everyday .

Im sick of worrying
Im sick of fighting
Im sick of you not being by my side
Im sick of everything bad that's happened
I just want you to come back

It just been a week since you left
But it feels like forever [♥]





[missingyou]
♥ Caitlyn × TeTeBendan

money or happiness

Happiness or money ?

Rich ppl doesnt mean they're happy . Poor ppl doesnt mean they're sad . How bout the ppl in between ? are they sad or happy ?
If u were to choose . which would you choose ? money or happiness ? and the condition was for you to choose one , nothing more , nothing less . And you will be stuck with ur choice for the rest of ur life .

Im not rich and yet im not happy . I dont know what to do .
Hope you come back soon ><
im waiting for ur return . =]



♥ Caitlyn

end of 2009/2010 ♥ me

Was bored at auntie's house . He was sleeping . So , I took
pictures .

































































































taking pictures with his glasses XP