christmas day 09

Today , we (friends included) all wake up at about 8 something . We all wake up from our vodka countdown night . LOL . I woke up with a empty stomach . XD . I was also disappointed when someone didn't stay at my house for sleepover . =[ . So sad . So , i sleep alone in my big empty queen sized bed . I slept very well . Just not perfect . I wanted you to hold me still the sun rises . I wanted to wake up and find you beside me . I wanted this Christmas to be 1 of my most memorable Christmas's . But nth ever goes the way I wanted . So , what the hell . just forget it . Forgive and forget . I think is the best way to get through life . If u cant forgive . You definitely wont forget . After a while tingyee gone home . Cause of neighbor's wedding . I went downstairs to look for some food . I ate icecream sandwich , noodle , and a cup of sprite . About 10 or 11 something , he came .

At 1 something , me my sis and mom went to my mother's friend's house for Christmas open house . Ate some food and drank soft drinks . My mom and her friend just keep taking taking taking . BORING . And i just sit there msging . XD . Is 3 o clock (they been taking for 2 hours)and I finally went to my Elva's house . Me and Elva went to spring =] . Finally . we just keep waking and talking till 5.30 and waited for our car to pick us to her family's christmas gathering (another gathering) . Ate and talk (as usual) . Is 9.30 and im back home . I went to his house and talked .

Havent talked for an hour . we fight AGAIN .
the reason this time is not listening to what im saying (very lame reason but when it happens to you , you'll get it . you'll feel neglected and forgoten) . Then , comes the silent part . everyone is silent and feel so bored . So i just took my handphone and walked home . By myself . I hated being alone . walking alone . eating alone . sleeping alone . The only 2 things i can do is being with my friends and the computer . The only 2 medicines . That can at least stop the loneliness .